Ascent

Cold air chills the metal in my spine

My head feels heavy, trying to align

Exhausted from yesterday and tomorrow

Adamant to spend ‘now’ without sorrow

 

I turn on the car keys, BBC blasts on

Obama or McCain, finance going down

Switch to a love song very intense

The lover’s craze, his desire immense

 

I think of You; my craze, my desire

every word of the song taking me higher

I see your beauty in the grace of the sky

I see Your birds seeming to say Hi

Driving heedlessly, oblivious of Route 80

singing to my God, crying in my gaiety

By the time Passaic arrive, a rebirth

Fatigue washed in tears, pain in mirth.

 

It maybe said that I drove to work

Only I Know that I ascended to work. 

                                                             Alara

 

 

All poems subject to copyright 2018 Alara Azad

Fake Tears

In the frenzy of departure

the luggage , the ticket, the passport

The flight number, the gate number

The rushed drive to the airport.

 

The final overhead announcement

Call for boarding the airplane

A sinking, drowning  sentiment

In my young six year old brain

 

In the chaos of goodbyes

I saw her beautiful and tall

She finally turned around to me

after saying goodbyes to all

 

Would have been infinitely better

had she ignored me

casually, with indifference

had she left nonchalantly.

 

But alas ………..

 

She decided to cry fake tears

distorting her face usually proud

sobbing a little too loud

lame acting to convince the crowd

 

I knew her well, through and through

her abuses, her taunts, her dark fears

But that display of fake tears

clung to me for years and years

 

Today, I have forgiven her

Maybe she was overwhelmed

Maybe her guilt made her numb

I actually pity she felt ashamed

 

But those fake tears washed me clean

stripped me of all illusions and dreams

Knocked me in front of God supreme

Darker the night, brighter the stars gleam.

                                                                           Alara